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Carried on Eagles' Wings
18 November 2013
This past week I had my first-ever colonoscopy. I've written about the outward, physical aspects of the experience already on my photography Web site — see Inner Photography.
In today's article, I want to take a moment to explore the spiritual dimension of my week. I'll be referring to events described in the other article, so be sure to read that one first, as I am not going to repeat myself here.
When God rescued the Jewish people from slavery in Egypt, He declared: "You yourselves have seen what I did to Egypt, and how I carried you on eagles' wings and brought you to Myself." (Exodus 19:4)
This is exactly how I felt when I went through the whole process of the colonoscopy and the preparation for it. I experience an amazing grace which was supernatural (beyond natural) in every sense of the word!
I don't think I needed much Divine help with the fasting. I have done numerous fasts of various sorts in the past. And as I wrote in my other account, with all of the Jell-O, teas and bouillon soups I consumed while "fasting," it wasn't really a big deal. I didn't even get around to drinking all the Gatorade and Sprite I had bought! However, as during previous fasts, I did find the psychological cravings for a variety of foods to be harder to endure than the actual physical hunger. It's not our body that suffers during fasting as much as our lusts — which is, perhaps, the whole point of fasting!
I was dreading the colon cleansing process the night before, and the morning of, the colonoscopy. You would too if you had to drink a gallon of nasty-tasting laxative and have your intestines completely emptied out! The instructions for the Gavilyte C laxative warned of possible side effects: nausea, severe abdominal cramping, vomiting, chest pain, fainting, fast/irregular heartbeat, shortness of breath, intestinal or stomach bleeding, seizures, rashes, or dizziness.
Gosh! I guess they have to cover all their bases, but it had me worried how many of these side effect I might experience. Well, I had to do it, so there was no use worrying about it. I thought of it like getting a really bad flu, with the difference being that I knew exactly when it was going to hit!
The first round of Gavilyte the evening before went as well as could be expected, seeing that the desired result was severe diarrhea. I experienced only mild cramping in the intestines — otherwise, everything was fine. It was at this point that I started to feel carried in God's arms.
After a decent night's sleep I started the second round at 4:00 AM. The cramping was a bit worse — perhaps because my intestines were already pretty empty, or perhaps in my haste to get rid of the nasty stuff I downed it even quicker than the previous evening. Anyway, I really felt carried again. It wasn't as bad as I had feared, and I was doing fine.
The staff at the Corvallis Clinic were all very professional and friendly. They do 20 colonoscopies a day there, and it was evident from beginning to end that they have an efficient system worked out. The whole time I was there I felt very much carried by God on eagles' wings. Normally I am pretty antisocial, but at the Clinic I was quite outgoing and talkative — now that is a true miracle! I was at perfect peace without any anxiety whatsoever — all in all it was pretty amazing that I was doing so well.
I had a quick recovery from the anesthetic and felt so good for the rest of the day that I worked on my computer all afternoon and didn't even need a nap, even though I had gotten up so early. I remained fresh all the way to my normal bedtime, and all day long I praised God for His wonderful care and help.
Unfortunately, the following days were not quite as glorious. I was very grumpy, as if I had to make up for the lack of grumpiness during the previous days! I didn't need to be carried on eagles' wings, so God had set me back down to continue my journey following Yeshua (Jesus, Isa) on my own two feet! The "lame feet" of my human nature could feel every rough spot on the path, and I had to exert some of my own effort once again — God wasn't going to do it all for me on a long-term basis.
Yeshua is with me every step of the journey, but it's only in times of very special need that He might decide to carry me. His grace is always there, but I can't expect it to always feel like eagles' wings. I need to learn to find His enabling power in the everyday events of life as well as in the crises. Perhaps living in His grace during normal life is the harder of the two!
This article is 24th a series of articles on this Web site related to My Journey with Yeshua (Jesus) which also includes (scroll to see the entire list):
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