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Three Years Later
20 December 2012
Today I reached a new milepost: it was three years ago today that I became an illustrious member of the ranks (joining millions and millions of other Americans) of the unemployed. If you have missed my previous writings in which I contemplate my state of unemployment, you can get up to speed by reading the following articles: Today, eighteen months after I wrote "Eighteen Months Later," I'm still very much in the same limbo which I have been in for the whole of these three years. For me, it is EXTREMELY difficult to figure out, or understand, what God is doing in my life.

Is it really God's plan for me to be unemployed for three whole years, with no direction, no instructions, no vision, no purpose, and no apparent destiny? Or am I just totally missing the boat? These are the questions, fears and doubts which constantly plague me.

I keep having this nagging feeling that perhaps, in the near future, circumstances will change in such a way that it won't matter that I don't have a job or a source of income. In past articles I've explored some possible scenarios of what these changed "circumstances" could be:
  • A catastrophic 9.0 Pacific Northwest mega-quake in the Cascadia Subduction Zone, which runs from northern California all the way up through southern British Columbia, Canada. I've shared many of the details of this ever-present danger in my article Cascadia Reckoning.
  • Just like the earthquake danger mentioned in the previous point, the rapidly-approaching economic collapse of the United States is not a matter of IF, but only WHEN. Rather than responsibly attacking the difficult issue of cutting back our country's expenditures, our brain-dead politicians naively believe that raising the debt level or raising taxes is going to cure our national terminal disease. I don't think Revelation 18:11-19 is referring specifically to the U.S., but I think the world reaction described in this passage will accurately reflect the global dismay when America bites the dust. I've gone into more details in my article Dollar Reckoning.
  • Natural and economic disasters are not the only dangers facing the modern world. Islam is flexing its muscles and going from strength to strength, while the West seems to be wasting away from a fatal disease. Despite the fact that I will be labelled Islamophobic, I'm here to say that Muslims are well on the way to achieving their goal of world domination. In fact, I'm so certain this will come to pass that I've even created an entire Web site dedicated to the subject: Your Islamic Future. A good, short introduction to the topic would be my article Why Islam Will Win.
  • Like every other human being alive today, I could die any moment. As it says in the sacred writings:
    • You do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes. (James 4:14)
    • We were born only yesterday and know nothing, and our days on earth are but a shadow. (Job 8:9)
    • God said to him, "You fool! This very night your life will be demanded from you. Then who will get all the possessions you have acquired for yourself?" (Luke 12:20)
    Cancer, heart attack, car accident, violence — we are NOT the masters of our own destiny, for it is God who holds our lives in His hands.
In light of the disastrous way that a certain Barack Hussein is conducting American foreign, fiscal and health policies, calamity in these realms may be closer than we imagine. I have not yet heard any reports that Obama has taken control of natural disasters and can command them at will, even though he made good use of one during the last election.

So, why have I been unemployed for the past three years, with no realistic prospects that I will find a job in the near future? My sense is that one of the above-mentioned four potential crises — or perhaps a combination of more than one — will come to pass in such a way that my being employed or not will be rendered meaningless and inconsequential. Of course, I could very well be wrong, and things don't turn out that way. And, of course, I'm continuing to look for a job as I have been throughout these three years, getting daily listings from Monster.com.

When I read Mary Shelley's book, The Last Man, about two years ago (see Apocalyptic Imagination), the life and role of the main character seemed to resonate with something deep in my soul. He seemed to live a hidden and purposeless life, but in fact, for his entire life he was being prepared for the role he would be called upon to fulfill after the world-wide collapse of civilization.

I wouldn't begin to image that I might have the same role as the character in the book, but I do have a deep sense that God is preparing me for some sort of small but vital role in the coming crises and collapse. The hard times I have been going through inwardly for years are training so I'll be ready to face the inescapable hard times which will be coming outwardly upon the whole world. Hopefully, with the Lord's strength, I will be able to stand in the day of darkness. By not clinging to this present mortal life, by seeing death as a friend and not an enemy, by realizing that my true life is with God in heaven, I have hope that I shall not faint with fear. As Yeshua said of these days:
It will seem like all hell has broken loose — sun, moon, stars, earth, sea, in an uproar and everyone all over the world in a panic of terror, the wind knocked out of them by the threat of doom, the powers-that-be quaking. And then — then! — they'll see the Son of Man [Yeshua] welcomed in grand style — a glorious welcome! When all this starts to happen, up on your feet. Stand tall with your heads high — your salvation is near! (Luke 21:25-28)
This article is 8th a series of articles on this Web site related to My Journey with Yeshua (Jesus) which also includes (scroll to see the entire list):
7  Jan  2010
1  Aug  2010
28  Sep  2010
7  Oct  2010
27  Oct  2010
20  Dec  2010
27  Jun  2011
Three Years Later
20  Dec  2012
17  Feb  2013
7  Mar  2013
8  Mar  2013
9  Mar  2013
10  Mar  2013
11  Mar  2013
12  Mar  2013
13  Mar  2013
14  Mar  2013
15  Mar  2013
28  Apr  2013
8  Jul  2013
14  Jul  2013
11  Aug  2013
24  Oct  2013
18  Nov  2013
20  Dec  2013
28  Jan  2014
4  Sep  2014
16  Jan  2015
23  May  2015
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